I wish to apologise for my absence and delay on posting of things these past few weeks because...this week, my mom died.
there. Ive written it. cold words on a blank page for a cold fact that she lost her battle against ALS which is cold crappy horrible disease, but then again so are most terminal diseases...yes the brain tells me these facts, the heart is having a hard time accepting them as reality. While with the hours of driving back and forth, being caregiver, being rather on autopilot and away from much of what I love my friends and watching in some sort of abstract life parade before me, the last few months have been...really hard, at times horrible ...but I can only imagine what it was like for her....unable to move to speech to feel to express in the old manner we all take for granted- worse lovely generous wonderful person she was, mom was far more worried about my dad my brother and I than herself and it breaks my heart, just breaks it breaks it breaks it. I dont know what to say now.
I do know I've missed loads of things of late, such as the baftas (disappointed that NTK didnt win) or the official release of Spread on dvd or Dougrays new film with RJ or new pics from eagle or lunas awesome meeting with Colin Farrell at Seville or the Clash of titans teaser trailer (someone PLEASE find pic of my beloved Jamie Sives in this movie I've been searching for months and ugggh nothing gah) and most especially I feel Ive not been keeping up with Sigma-for this I very much regret and hope to back writing about very soon.