Friday, November 13, 2009

sorry for the absence

I wish to apologise for my absence and delay on posting of things these past few weeks because...this week, my mom died.

there. Ive written it. cold words on a blank page for a cold fact that she lost her battle against ALS which is cold crappy horrible disease, but then again so are most terminal diseases...yes the brain tells me these facts, the heart is having a hard time accepting them as reality. While with the hours of driving back and forth, being caregiver, being rather on autopilot and away from much of what I love my friends and watching in some sort of abstract life parade before me, the last few months have been...really hard, at times horrible ...but I can only imagine what it was like for her....unable to move to speech to feel to express in the old manner we all take for granted- worse lovely generous wonderful person she was, mom was far more worried about my dad my brother and I than herself and it breaks my heart, just breaks it breaks it breaks it. I dont know what to say now.

I do know I've missed loads of things of late, such as the baftas (disappointed that NTK didnt win) or the official release of Spread on dvd or Dougrays new film with RJ or new pics from eagle or lunas awesome meeting with Colin Farrell at Seville or the Clash of titans teaser trailer (someone PLEASE find pic of my beloved Jamie Sives in this movie I've been searching for months and ugggh nothing gah) and most especially I feel Ive not been keeping up with Sigma-for this I very much regret and hope to back writing about very soon.
Sorry again


  1. Sue, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't really imagine how it feels. It's difficult to find words to comfort you. I'm not sure if it's possible. At least, you're in my thoughts.


  2. Sorry, Sue. My best to you and your family.

  3. Thinking of you here too - really sorry to hear this.

  4. My condolences to you and your family, Sue. You are in my prayers and thoughs

    Go Well

  5. Sorry to hear of your loss Sue.
    My deepest condolences to you and your family.


  6. Dear Sue,

    I suspected there must be something wrong for you not have been posting on your site. I know it's something you enjoy putting your heart and soul into. I had no idea that the cause of your absence would be something so devastating. Please let me, on behalf of all at Sigma as well as myself pass on our sincere condolences.

    There is nothing that can be said that can make this easier for you or your family. However, please be sure in the knowledge that we are thinking of you, as are many people, and that your mum would be pleased to know you are not alone. You have the support of many people who respect and admire what you do and the wonderful contributions you make to the world.

    All the best in these difficult times,

    Colin Kennedy

  7. Please accept the condolences of a stranger. I know very little about ALS but from what I do know, your mother is finally at peace. I hope you, too, will find peace in knowing that her spirit is free of what this terrible, crippling disease did to her body. My sincere sympathy to you and yours.

  8. Sue, my condolences to you and your family. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

  9. Mom? Are you american??
    Hope all is well soon